The back and forth

9.18.21

Since calling my insurance provider and my employer to understand exactly what steps I need to follow for accessing care for my mental health, I have, no less than 407 times, went back and forth between “Is it really that bad?” to “ Be brave. It’s ok to ask for help.”

FMLA paperwork, disability conversations…oh my god, is is that serious that we are talking about FMLA and disability?

My employer gave me such support. I haven’t spoken to my direct supervisor, but I believe she will be supportive also. I have more phone calls to make next week, but I have increased peace about taking these steps.

But God this is so fucking hard.